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Sunday, May 4th, 2003
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8:24 pm - new days ahead
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I have a new journal now, its http//:wishingwell.easyjournal.com/ i think thats right ok have fun!! bye.
im having massive issues trying to make that a link so yeah sorry.
current mood:  energetic
current music: beauty and the beast
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| Monday, March 24th, 2003
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4:01 pm - "Maybe this world is another planet's Hell." Aldous Huxley
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i dont know whats up lately, all this news about war gives me the willies. I watch tv and they break in with their coverage on the news and i hear it on the radio. its impossible to escape i guess. i just freeze up. i dont want to even hear about the war, i would like to sit in my room and watch footloose until its all over, but i cant. i gotout of school today and took lisa home and went and drove by myself in the neighborhood just thinking, this song by the goo goo dolls came on that i used to listen to it seems like so long ago when it was really popular. Iris, yeah well it was great. its nice to escape for awhile, even if this war wasnt going on it is still nice to just get away, leave earth for awhile. My dad went to india over spring break and he said once he came back he was just happy for what we have. he was amazed at how many homeless people there were. he said as soon as he got there, there was a huge fight of people in front of the hotel police had to break it up, and then security gaurds had to walk him to his room. thats kinda weird, ive only been outta my country once and that was on a cruise to alaska, but that in the us huh ? well it was really far it seemed like a different country. its all weird. i got to drive to school today becaus ei got my license on thursday. its wwas cooolll!! i was paranoid all day i thought i would get a boot on my car. oh well time to go do some massive homework.
current mood:  peaceful
current music: if u could only see--tonic
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| Wednesday, March 12th, 2003
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8:55 pm - its been a looong time...
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i was told today that i never update, this is true but i still wanted to prove them wrong because i am like that so here it is...
neww stuff:
i got a new car i named it pea wee because the color resembles a pea. Its perty cool its a Kia Rio.
I am also doing this page parkes singing thing and so i am taking the class and i had to do a commercial, and they gave me three commercials to choose from LYDIA!!! remember when you did the commercial thing and they had the skippy peanut butter one, well they are still passingit out no one chose it because he told a story about how a girl did it really well and no one wanted to top it off. i thought it was cool though.
but anyways so i get my license on march 20. then i am gonna drive lisa to work to pay her back for driving me.
i have been spending a lot of time with lisa lately which is good because i love hanging out with her but bad because i rarely hang out with sarah, and i miss that she is so into theatre and i am so into work. And she likes doing that and i like doing my stuff. but i feel like its wasting away, i dont want it to! i miss her coming over every saturday and now i have to work.its weird but i am really worried about it. hopefully we will work something out or it gets really bad i might quit, a job isnt as important as a friendship like ours.
ohhhhhhhhhhhh welllllllll
my grades suuck this six weeks the district assesment kicked me back a few letter grades.lol no big, i am sick of worring.
current mood:  listless
current music: theatre of tragedy--a distance there is.
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| Thursday, February 13th, 2003
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3:07 pm - shamalama ding dong...
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tomorrow is valentines day and i am actually looking forward to it, i have an outfit and a valentine of my very own, : )!!!!! well, not really but joe is my pretend valentine
its exciting everyone is getting together casey has jersey, katie has danial, sarah broke up with jeff, that in itself is exciting and lisa likes a boy, everything is going pretty good, now im waiting for the downfall.
we did corse selections today. i have to turn in an application for co-op. and then i am also taking asl II but i cant take choir, kind of a bummer. well gotta go to work to get my ever so small pay check!
current mood:  crazy
current music: prego commercial!
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| Monday, January 20th, 2003
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12:30 pm - im bored here is a survey to waste your time.
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*part 1*
*Are you a virgin?: yup!
*Do you wear pajamas or sleep in the nude?: pajamas
*Candles or incense?: both I like things to smell good but candles are pretty
*Car or truck?: truck
*Do you believe in chain letters?: no they annoy me
*Do you sleep with your stuffed animal?: yes I do, a blue bare named garfunkle
*Do you love anyone?: I don’t wanna talk about it
*McDonalds or Burger King?: burger king
*What's the worst thing you have ever done?: I yelled at one of my customers becuz they wouldn’t tell me what they wanted to eat and I had a very long line, I don’t like people anymore.
*Obsession?: im obsessed with singing everywhere I go, I think everyone at work is ready to shove a sock down my throat
*How often do you clean your room?: once a week, and then it takes two days
*Number 1 on your list to have sex with?: no one
*Sexiest bitch you know: lol well I know no sexy bitches
*What do you wanna name your kids?: Bailey, Audrey, mykah, and shane, I think
*Is Vanilla Ice cool or does he still suck?: he sucks sooo much
*Favorite cartoon?: smurfs
*Rather be a Smurf or Scooby Doo?: Scooby doo, surfs are to happy
*Where are your piercings?: belly button and ears
*Drugs?: asprin?
*Jerry Springer or Ricki Lake?: neither, I would like to think stay oblivious to the fact that the world isn’t the perfect place ever.
*Have you got any pets?: one cat, one dog and a few fish
*Cat-person or dog-person?: dog-person, but the big sleepy dogs not the jumpy ones that never leave you alone
*What's better? bass or guitar?: hmm, I like bass players but the guitar sounds the coolest
*Is your writing messy or neat?: messy when I am in a rush
*Where do you want to live?: in the country, or right were I am
*How many kids do you want?: 4
*Habla espanol?: ehh? Does that help?
*Does anyone owe you money?: no but I owe people
*Are you happy or sad right now?: neither, im to sleepy to care
*How's school?: im failing math
*What do you want to be when you grow up?: entertainer or a social worker, I really wanna be that
*Do you go to church?: constantly
*What do you do when your bored?: I read, watch the disney channel, sleep
*Beavis or Butt-head?: beavis, he doesn’t have the word butt in his name
*Book or magazine?: book
*Ever seen a ghost?: no
*Do you believe in witchcraft?: yes
*Do you sleep with the music on?: I cant, don’t ask
*King Of The Hill? or The Simpsons?: simpsons
*Ever been arrested?: no
*Mad TV or Mad Magazine?: they have a mad magazine????
*Steak or salad?: salad
*Craziest thing you've ever done?: im not the “crazy” type of person , im very grounded, but one time there was a guy in the water fountain at afterworld and we were on a field trip with school in like the 7th grade and erin edie and I jumped in and no one else would, im a rebel!
*What's the band you hate the most?: I think the hives or something like that, I just cant stand their music
*What's the singer you hate the most?: I don’t hate singers I just hate their voices, but most of the time I like them so I cant think of one
*Worst TV show?: anna Nicole show
*Have you ever cheated on someone?: yes, but I didn’t do it, it was done to me
*Have you ever been cheated on?: oo yes
*Favorite book: girl, interrupted
*Favorite number(s): 7 and 9
*"Haha" or "hehe"?: haha
*Bright or dark?: in between
*Favorite radio station(s): 96.5 and 92.9
*If you had the chance to be on Titanic knowing it was gonna sink, would you still go?: yes and be the first in like for a life boat
*Do you have a secret crush on anyone that you want to tell?: yes yes yes, but it wont happen
*If you could have $100,000,000 or love, what would you have?: love
*part 2*
*Most attractive physical feature of a guy is? Eyes and mouth
*Most attractive personality trait for a guy is? Sarcasm and stubborness
*Would you date anyone out of your race? Probably not, and not because im racist it was just how I was raised
*Do you like older, younger or same age guys? LoL haha older and same age mainly older
*Would you date a guy that smokes? I did already, that doesn’t really bother me
*Do you prefer taller, shorter or same height guys? Taller but not like 6’7” or anything
*Do you like guys with facial hair or no? I would not prefer it, but it wouldn’t keep me from liking them
*Would you want a guy that is or is not a virgin? doesn’t matter, its not like they are gonna deflower me : )
*Would you date a guy your friend likes or used to like? Honestly no unless I really liked them and they said it was ok.
*HONESTLY, when it comes down to dating a person, do looks really matter? No not really once u know their personality they are cute
*Do you think College is a must? I wish it wasn’t but it is
*Last guy you flirted with: this guy from work
*Last guy who flirted with you: same thing
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| Monday, January 13th, 2003
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6:47 pm - empty places, empty facess....
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i haven't updated in so long so i figured i would. how does everyone like their new schedules? well i hate not having gym but i did fail my gym exam, i got a 65, i didnt even know you could do that. Joe is back at school now, its mighty grrreeat! but katie and i hung out today and she bought me dinner
IOU: $3.45 thanx though i had fun. but my mom wants me to get off! have fun !
current mood:  dorky
current music: that mad world song, who sings it katie?????
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| Wednesday, December 18th, 2002
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12:55 pm - exams are really easy this year... maybe.
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hey i saw meghan this morning!!!!!! hi meghan!!! thats all :) i had a good day, a beautiful day !!!! how was yall day??
current mood: giddy
current music: disease-matchbox twenty
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| Thursday, December 12th, 2002
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5:36 pm - "Education is a progressive discovery of our own ignorance" --Will Durant
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joe came and payed me a visit in class today ::::)))))
katie if you need any help looking i am here buddy.
QUIZ TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[ x ] Spell your first name backwards - acissej
[ x ] The story behind your lj user name - im not sure it was interesting at the time
[ x ] Where do you live - in a one story house on Stratford bend dr.
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - im bad at this
DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Wallet - I switched with Joe so mine is brown and worn out.
[ x ] Hairbrush - red and round
[ x ] Toothbrush - white with green stripes
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - 2 cross rings, one heart ring and my angel necklace and loop earings
[ x ] Pillow cover - white and it has a big coca cola brand on it
[ x ] Blanket -blue squares with brown flower looking things
[ x ] Coffee cup - yellow and tall (very cool)
[ x ] Sunglasses - don’t have any
[ x ] Underwear - pretty!
[ x ] Shoes - my bowling shoes are very tattered, black and tan.
[ x ] Handbag - black and knitted
[ x ] Favorite top - its really big and gray with maroon sleeves
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - candies and victoria secrets heavenly
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - counting crows- hard candy
[ x ] Tattoos - I wish I had the guns and roses dagger cross thing on my lower back.
[ x ] Piercings - 4 in my ears and one in my belly
[ x ] What you are wearing now - sarahs sponge bob shirt and my jeans
[ x ] Hair - brown
[ x ] Makeup - foundation cover up stuff and mascara ( I need to go shopping for makeup)
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - my tounge
[ x ] In my head - a three letter name and my homework.
[ x ] Wishing - I didn’t have homework
[ x ] After this - homework
[ x ] Talking to - my dad
[ x ] Eating - pretzels
[ x ] Fetishes - hmm cant think of any off the top of my head
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason - I wouldn’t kill anyone ever, even if I could get away with it.
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - sarah and joe
[ x ] Is next to you - a lamp
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - girl and the wedding planner
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - I sing at church and Christmas and joe coming over and and and everything!!!
[ x ] The last thing you ate - pretzles
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - being alone for to long.
[ x ] Do you like candles - yes!
[ x ] Do you like hot wax - not to hot
[ x ] Do you like incense - yes
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - im not sure
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yes very much so
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - sometimes, like my sister and her husband
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - of course
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - I do
[ x ] Do you believe in God - I certainly do
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - not sure its gonna be dead anyways
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - no one I love everyone
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - a kitten or a snake
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - 5 or not go to bed at all
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - nope
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - no I drop everything
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - a dime
[ x ] What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to - forsyth, La Grange, Iowla, nappa, and here
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods - ice cream and peanut butter toast.
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - I cant please everyone
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - not everyone has to like you
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time - my old best friend Elizabeth dooly
[ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow - I wanna make someone smile.
current mood: energetic
current music: love you out loud--Rascal Flatts
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| Thursday, December 5th, 2002
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6:21 pm - searching for the rainbow...
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Im tired of trying to help you, im tired of giving up things at the chance that you MIGHT change. Its to big of a jump for me. I bring myself up so high at the thought that things will get batter and then you just stop trying and im so disapointed, in you and in me. I wish I wasnt so attatched, that I had a choice in this. I know I do and that its easy for me to get myself out of this one.
But its like I have the knife but wont cut the rope.
I know you wont read this, and to be honest im glad, but I had to tell something.
BY THE WAY....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIT!! HOPE YOU HAD A VERY GREENFILLED B-DAY! : )
current mood:  disappointed
current music: home for the holidays---tv commercial
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| Monday, November 25th, 2002
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10:00 pm - (optional, for use on longer entries)
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My dad got baprized on sunday, very emotional ok mainly just for me becuz i cry easily.But i am really proud of him, he is such a great person and changed sooo much, it amazes me he came so far.But yeah, Joe went to church with me on sunday and then he came over and he watched beetlegeuse for the very first time. It was great,i had a blast just hanging out with him...it was perfect. He was really good with the kids too, he got along with my niece and nephew so well. He is prolly gonna go with me to church next sunday too, and then help me paint my room. I forgot how much fun he was, seems really impossible to forget. ok im done.
right now i am at sarahs waiting for her to get home from work, i got her a surprise care bear and a congrats card on her first day at work, shes so cool.
current mood:  good
current music: turn turn turn--the Byrds
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| Friday, November 22nd, 2002
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3:51 pm - an employee of AMC First Colony.
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i had my training yesterday which is basically me working but haveing a manager helping me and the other trainies. I did terrible, I worked at the cash register for 4 customers while my partner got the food, and then i god the food while my partner served like 5 customers.
So out of my 4 customers i messed up three times, and i had to have my register opened for me twice and then do the change in my head once which is hard for me to do.yeah i give this job a week b4 i get fired man!
current mood:  awake
current music: big red commercial
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| Monday, October 28th, 2002
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4:36 pm - katie..
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i cant imagine what your going through right now. i wish i could say something, anything to help comfort you, but anything i say wont change what has happened. you probably have a long list of friends that will be here for you and that you can come to them if you need a shoulder, or anything. add one more to that list. im always here. call anytime, day or night if you need anything.
love always
jessie
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| Friday, October 25th, 2002
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12:34 pm - mixed up
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so joe got kicked out of military school, and now he is home. see i thought that if this happened i would be soooo excited, but he keeps calling and i know he wants to do something, but im so against it. i didnt date him again becuz he was doing everything i think is stupid, like drinking, smoking, and doing drugs. Dont get me wrong, its his life but i dont wanna be involved with it if he is gonna do that. And last night he called and was going to anthony garcias house. and i know for a fact joe didnt just sit there and not do anything. i dunno, i guess when he went to military school i thought he would change a little bit and he got kicked out of there, that doesnt say very much good stuff on his part.
im just kinda caught in a bind, i have done this to him so many times, where i say i like him and then i bail last minute. and here michael comes along, believing in everything i do, and its exactly what i have been looking for. I know what i have to do, but its the doing it that is taking awhile.
i just thought i would bore everyone with my gay boy problems. bye
current mood:  drained
current music: only fools rush in-- elvis on tv
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| Wednesday, October 23rd, 2002
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3:11 pm - i hate this quiz
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What Color Eyes Should You Have?
brought to you by Quizilla
im not dumb
So i got to stay home from school today becuz i got home really late last night and i would have been t tired to learn anything, in my dads words. hey thats ok : ) so i got my progress report and i managed to have a 71 in gym. i didnt even know that was possible. it dropped 21 points in 2 weeks, yeah thats bull. and she has commented that i am "argumentative" and i "refuse to bring supplies." Now the supplies part yes but i never argue, i hate when teachers yell at me so i dont provoke them, well not all the time. thats stupid. so now i have to go talk to my coach becuz my mom wants an explanation as to how i am disrespectful in that class and in all my other classes i have comments like "good participation" "pleasure to have in class" "polite and respectful." I dunno I just dont like talking to people, so i am not gonna be very anxious to talk to her.
But yeah anyways, last night i went to college station with some people from youth. I drove up there with jeff and cindy and then back with jeff. Very awkward situation, i really didnt wanna be there so i went in the back seat and went to sleep. Or i tried i dont like to sleep in cars with people. I dunno anyways so yeah but all in all the night was loads of fun. i got to go to the A&M basketball court and jump around on it :P
oh well, i hope everyone had fun at school!
current mood:  cold
current music: the goo goo dolls on the city of angels sound track.
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| Saturday, October 19th, 2002
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5:42 pm - PSAT has the word Sat in it which stands for saturday...ironic... : )
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so i havent updated in a while so here goes..
Last night,i was supposed to go hang out with michael church but it didnt work out well i think i should buy him a watch. but then it was all good by the end of the night.
today was PSAT's so Katie picked me up and we headed to school it was really really hard for me, i think i got a 2! But it was finally over and then katie, jake, daniel and me went to dennys fun fun! then we went to go see The Ring, very scary crap good but scary. EHH you gotta see it twice. then we hung out a little bit and got some choc. milk. : )now i am home.
My exciting day! have a beautiful day!
i <3 everyone!
current mood: groggy
current music: lose yourself--eminem (its stuck in my head)
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| Saturday, October 5th, 2002
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11:28 am - Then all the stars came together, forming this big white opening in the sky...
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nothing interesting to write, the days are going by so fast now that they all seem to mesh together into one big long day. EHHH!
I got to actually sit home and watch donnie darko which i have been meaning to do since forever, it never gets old.
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN A WEEK!!!!! OCT.13!! 8 MORE DAYS!
have a beautiful fun filled day..
current mood: content
current music: i just woke up i didnt think to put on music...brain lapse.
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| Sunday, September 22nd, 2002
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2:36 pm - AN UPDATE...
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| Thursday, September 19th, 2002
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5:17 pm - The best is yet to appear..
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It would be nice..
if we could look up at the clouds and make different figures,
maybe play connect the dots with the stars..what a beautiful day it would be..maybe one day.
just a thought.
current mood:  optimistic
current music: A Beautiful Mess--Diamond Rio
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| Tuesday, September 17th, 2002
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3:23 pm - bow chicka bow wow?!?!
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today was a good day, nothing totally bad happened, except for a false alarm in gym. But now its cool beans. see you at the pole tomarrow, gotta get up at like 5 so i can be ready on time. man o man. fun!!!
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| Monday, September 16th, 2002
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4:51 pm - "A lie gets halfway around the world before the truth has a chance to get its pants on."W. Churchill
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i tried to sneak my tears into my jacket during 7th...didnt work.
thanx for the fun you two
current mood: content
current music: one boy, one girl--____________
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